In this op-ed, Teen Vogue politics editor Lucy Diavolo assesses how the Trump administration’s proposed new rule for federally funded homeless shelters connects to their broader efforts to attack trans people more broadly.

At a certain point, I’ve come to accept that being trans during Donald Trump’s presidential administration means being prepared at any time for a headline that will simultaneously break my heart and crush my soul. I came out in 2016, celebrating the early milestones of my transition even as the country descended toward his election. To this day, I still have to look for joy not just for myself, but in spite of a president who embodies the ways so many are happy to view people like me as a headline-generating political football.

This week offered another chance to live out this paradox of both expecting the worst and still somehow being shocked when the bad news breaks. As reported by Katelyn Burns at Vox last week, a proposed new rule from the Department of Housing and Urban Development (HUD) seeks to again regulate gender by allowing federally funded homeless shelters to sex-segregate trans people as shelter operators see fit. This comes more than a year after HUD proposed a rule that would allow religious freedom to be a reason to deny trans people admission to shelters or house trans women with men.

According to a July 1 press release from HUD, the new proposed change to a 2016 Equal Access rule (aka, the “Gender Identity Rule”) would allow shelters to sort people based on criteria they set, like “biological sex” or the gender specified on legal documents (which can be difficult and expensive for trans people to update). Most cruelly, the document, which was leaked to Vox, appears to show that the rule offers guidance on how to actually spot a trans woman, seeking to turn the ability to clock Adam’s apples and beard shadows into an outgrowth of federal policy. Read more via Teen Vogue